27.1.04
ive been told that my dark rings are getting worse, and so have i noticed too. it isnt insomnia this time round, but rather, the unwillingness to sleep. somehow i'd prefer to stay awake till the wee hours of the night, even if it means doing nothing at all. but eccentric ways have their consequences. heavy eyelids become part and parcel of every lecture and tutorial and even now, as i sit in front of the computer, im trying desperately to keep myself awake...apparently, half hour naps dont seem to help me much.
enough about sleep. for the past couple of days, my emotions have chosen the unpredictable route of that of a rollercoaster. they could neither be explained, nor reasoned out. the origins of the sudden emotional turbulance have yet to be sought out. in any situation, time always heals all wounds. and at daybreak, the usual nonchalent and smiley facade makes its reappearance. and everything is, assumably, well again. hence if i shy away from the harshness of reality, it is usually not by choice. i'm seized by compulsion.
reporting to school every morning is becoming a tedious task which involves a significant deal of bravery on my part.
to my dear friend choryen, get well soon. :)
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